I am a 32…(ok 42..man that’s a hard number to type) I am a 42 year old woman living in middle class America with a wonderfully supportive husband and 3 awesome beautiful and healthy children. We have 2 awesome doggies. We live in a great house, we are part of an AMAZING church, I volunteer as a youth leader for some awesome young ladies and have a wonderful extended family. I have everything in the world to be thankful for and I AM…Everyday…that’s what makes my story even more frustrating. I suffer from Anxiety and Panic Attacks. Not just an occasional tinge of butterflies in the stomach or a slight nervous feeling…nope…I suffer from Anxiety that plagues me every day…Panic attacks so bad that they wake me from my sleep or cause me to have to pull over my car and call my husband to come and rescue me.
For 20 years I have suffered from some sort of symptom that has been contributed to anxiety. Since the birth of my last child, 9 years ago, I have suffered from major anxiety symptoms and panic attacks that can debilitate me. I have spent 20 years hiding my symptoms and pushing through my day putting on a happy face while secretly going through a daily hell of emotions and symptoms.
Here’s the thing about panic and anxiety…the symptoms are VERY real! They are not imagined your body really is doing the things you are feeling. When my symptoms were so out of control that I couldn’t hide them anymore, kind of hard to hide it when your being carted away in a an ambulance from your child’s school…yes that was embarrassing, you start to find out how common anxiety and panic really are and how many people are dealing with the same experience especially women. It’s like some secret society that you learn about when you start talking about it!
Hi “I’m Candy…and I “FREAK OUT “for no reason”…”My Sister “FREAKS OUT” for no reason also…” That’s usually how the conversation goes and you start to uncover an entire underground world of women and even men that are dealing with this in silence every day. Every time a conversation goes that direction I start asking myself why didn’t I ever know about this…how is it that all of these people are walking around like this and yet the doctors have no idea what to do to really fix it …how is it that we are all comfortable to just brush this off?
Anxiety and Panic are HUGE…did you know that? According to the AAG website over 40 Million people are affected by some sort of anxiety or panic disorder. More specifically 6 Million people are dealing with anxiety on a daily basis!! That’s CRAZY!! That’s 6 million people who should be focused on careers, family, fun, hope etc. that are daily battling the symptoms of Anxiety and Panic. Let me give you some perspective.
That’s 144,000,000 hours a day that are WASTED ON FEAR
1,008,000,000 Hours a week WASTED ON FEAR
52,560,000,000 A YEAR WASTED ON FEAR!!!
WOW!!! That’s 6 million “FREAK OUT” Sisters and Brothers! So I’m not alone and neither are you!
My reason for starting this discussion is to let you into the secret world of anxiety and panic and by doing so I hope to give my own anxiety and panic less power over me and hopefully encourage others in their journey with this. And equally important it’s time to get healthy! I’m tired of wasting my days giving in to false FEAR! I personally have wasted
20 years, 175,320 hours and 7,300 days on FEAR!!
ENOUGH is ENOUGH. What lessons am I teaching my children by giving into this FEAR and not getting myself the help I need? Speaking of kids…get this fun fact. Anxiety disorders affect one in eight children. Research shows that untreated children with anxiety disorders are at higher risk to perform poorly in school, miss out on important social experiences, and engage in substance abuse. 1 out of 8 people…that is HUGE! Anxiety is horrible difficult to process as an adult I can’t even imagine dealing with this as a child!
If you are a part of this Secret Society please let me know. I would love to encourage you and pray for you! Thanks for following along on this journey with me!